David's sox are finally done

David's sox started modestly enough. Toe up, two-at-a-time 100 stitches on a 60" magic loop size US1.


I started these in December of 2008. Since I have a day job, I wasn't able to make as much progress as I'd have liked. He was (sort of) patiently waiting for me to finish them.

They are just a little bit loose. I hand washed them but I think once around in his front-loader washer will bring them down just a little bit. These next two photos are more accurate colorwise.


Thanks for modeling them David!

Three-Month Checkup

Thursday afternoon I had my three-month checkup and an X-ray of my new shoulder. The socket, being plastic, is next-to-impossible to see. But I could see enough to understand how delicate the prosthetic is and why I'm being told never to hammer, box, fall on or anything else to that arm that would have "impact." It could much-to-easily be dislodged.

The humerus has a bone build up just below the stem of it's prosthetic where the bone flexed a little too much. The bone is more flexible than the titanium stem so this is a normal event just after surgery. It's all healed but the bulge is pretty obvious.

I still don't have the strength or range of motion I want but after only 3 months I think I'm doing quite well.

Just in case you wanted to know.

Physical Therapy

Apparently, Dr. Daniel Buss decided at some point to find and train up in his tradition of treatment a few physical therapists around the Twin Cities area. I met one of them yesterday, Rick Hjelm (pronounced Yelm). He is a very interesting and interested person to work with. He asks good questions about what I do for a living and about my martial art.

He tried a number of passive (meaning I didn't have to use my own muscles) exercises, only to find I could do them without difficulty or pain. He prescribed four exercises to do this week, a couple of which I've already aced. He explained why I shouldn't yet be trying for external rotation, especially with my palm up. Until the subscapularis tendon is firmly healed, I could damage it and delay the healing process. I forgot to ask about the biceps tendon and what I need to avoid.

But I go back next Tuesday morning, so I can ask him then.

Working is much less of a problem now. I still take Aleve every 8 hours. Sometimes it doesn't quite last 8 hours but I'm on a schedule (6 a.m., 2 p.m. and 10 p.m.) that fits my life so I don't take it early. I still take Vicodin when I go to bed, but I don't think I'll continue that past this week. We'll see how that goes.

The one problem is I still get really tired in the middle of the day. I try to eat well-balanced meals to avoid mid-afternoon droop. There's no way to take a nap at work and get away with it. I try not to nap when I get home because this makes falling asleep difficult at 10. Whine, whine, Merlot ... .

These are all expected problems that I am confident will go away soon.

For those who want to know

After only 2 days full-time at work, I ended the day in severe pain and exhausted. My arm and upper left back hurt and my left hand cramps. But when I got home, a vicodin took the edge off, after about 45 minutes. We'll see how tomorrow goes.

Thanks for asking.

Kung Fu Panda

My friend Betty and I went to see Kung Fu Panda this evening and I'm exhausted. I noted an amazing example of absorbing the opponent's energy and turning it around against the opponent. It was a very good movie. Thanks for the recommendation.

Saw the doctor this afternoon. I only have to use the sling to rest my shoulder and should take it off as much as possible. I was even told I could sleep on my new shoulder, if it doesn't hurt too much. Yeah, right. The instruction to wear the sling at night is because some people sleep very heavily and toss and turn and end up with their arm in positions it's not ready for yet. I can't imagine surviving the pain that would cause. I start physical therapy on the 9th. I only will need 4-6 visits but I know I'll have "homework."

All in all, I'm pleased. I still feel pain (duh, after only 2 weeks, of course I feel pain) but I have the good stuff for night to sleep with and ibuprofen and ice during the day. I guess I'll be ready to drive in and work a full day or 4 next week. In the meantime, I'm still working from home. I have some of my work downloaded to my hard drive and discovered if I disconnect from vpn my computer works much faster. So if anyone from work reads this, that's why I'm not always on top of my Notes e-mail.

Remember, there is no secret ingredient.

Ouch

I'm not at all sure I'll be able to work tomorrow. I'm going to have to call the HR nurse and ask what to do.

Yesterday (Saturday) I went to a movie with Betty, Cirque du Soliel's Delirium. Very good but I was glad I was paying movie theater prices for it. Anyway, we stopped for some supper after and by the time I got home I was in extreme pain. At first I couldn't pinpoint the pain. It was all over my arm. Up in my top neck/shoulder muscles where I tense up when I'm in pain...where everybody holds tension. Down the top of my forearm.

The top of my forearm ended up being the primary locus of my pain: in the muscles associated with holding the hand up. If you put your hand palm down on a table and rest your arm all the way up to the elbow on the table and then just lift your hand up, the muscle(s) that does that was what was hurting. It's also how I am able to type but only for short periods of time. Also, just above the elbow on the inner side of the upper arm was cramping up.

I've already tried to go an hour or two past the schedule for vicodin to see if I can survive without it. Nope. Doesn't work. I end up way behind and it takes a couple more hours for the drugs to get ahead of the pain. I won't be very useful working "under the influence." I can do a few small things, but nothing that takes a great deal of thought. And if I'm in a lot of pain because I stop the vicodin, I still won't be too useful. And nothing at Hoffman is "simple."

I'm disappointed.

Boooorrrrriiiiiiinnnngggg

I've cut my vicodin dosage to one tablet at a time every 4-6 hours. I'm hoping I'll be off it during the day next week so I can start working again. I still won't have much strength in my arm but maybe I'll be able to think more clearly.

I've had to be extremely deliberate when I put something down so I can remember where it is and not have to walk around my apt. 3-4 times looking for it. That was a real problem when I was taking 2 tablets at a time.

Cutting back to one tablet has helped me think more clearly as long as the pain stays at bay. But I still have no energy. I went out Wednesday evening with Ben and Stephanie to refill my prescription. It took 15 minutes for them to get around to telling us they didn't have any at Target. Cub foods did. When I got home I was exhausted.

Last night David took me to Walgreens to see if they had a softer sling. The one the doctor put me in is rubberized and hot and curls in at the edges. Now I have a nice cool one for daytime use. Again, exhausted when I got home.

The photo is the scarf I started before the surgery. I would put up a link but I keep getting a 404 error. Sorry. Basically it's k5 p1 forward and k1 p5 back, then move over a stitch so the p's all move diagonally to the left.

It's a relatively simple pattern that can be worked under the influence of good drugs. But I've only put about 6 rows on it. The problem is my arm can't rotate to a more palm-up position so it's very difficult to do any knitting. Darn. Double darn.

I'd read more, but it puts me to sleep. And I have trouble holding a book. Oooh. Sorry. Merlot, chablis, PORT.

I'm whining again. Maybe if I take a shower and walk all the way to the trash can to throw out my kitchen garbage, I'll feel better. Or be tired enough for a nap.

Observation

I was just napping (3:15 p.m.) in the recliner and as I was falling asleep I realized it is probably the only time when I can totally relax the muscles in my shoulder. In tai chi we learn to keep our shoulders down so we can be relaxed and breathe deeply. If we hold our shoulders up, our breathing rises to the upper portion of our lungs and we don't get enough oxygen.

If I keep fighting gravity, my shoulder hurts more. The more my shoulder hurts, the tighter I hold the muscles. The tighter I hold the muscles, the more my shoulder hurts. And on and on.

Just an observation.

Hand and brain still somewhat uncoordinated

Fever still down. Yay. Left hand is still pretty spastic. I can lift it but it goes down by itself. Turns palm down automatically. I don't think it's supposed to be palm up anyway.

Tried knitting. That’s humorous. I can’t wrap the yarn around the fingers on my left hand except if I use my right hand to do it. I figure, when I can knit, I’ll be able to work. Assuming I’m not on Vicodin.

Been sweating a lot. Fevers do that and mine still goes up and down. I put a really soft bathsheet towel on the bed and over my pillow and use hand towels under my armpit to absorb sweat from there.

So I cooked myself a lovely flaxseed (fiber), whole wheat, grilled pb and choc sandwich. Target Archer Farms has a chocolate and peanut butter mix that is sinfully good. Probably not the healthiest thing to eat right now but what the heck.

I'm home

One-handed typing is a challenge.

Thanks to all who have sent prayers and good wishes. Forgive me if I don't write to you all individually. This blog entry will take long enough to complete.

I left the hospital Friday and spent the weekend with David. I'm sure he's happy to have dropped me at my place this afternoon.

No big surprises, really. Fever is within acceptable range according to the handout I got. I have a cooler full of ice for the Cryo-cuff and am trying a blue ice thingy in my armpit. This cryo-cuff is significantly smaller than the one I had before and my arm is very hot on the side away from the ice (i.e., armpit). Pain is manageable but I AM on vicodin. Thinking isn't tooo clear. But I don't have to think, so that's a good thing.

This is the Cryo-cuff ice bucket label. (Please forgive the shaky photos. I'm not too steady shooting one-handed. The cuff can be used on knees as well as shoulders.

This is the inside top of the bucket. I had to refill it with ice a while ago and...

...I missed.

Fortunately, I have a lot of ice. It should last till Ben arrives Wednesday evening with more. ( Ben, bring this much.)


Warning, it looks icky.....







This last photo is David's fault. I figured if he was interested in the gorey details, someone else might be as well.

Surgery went fine

Pain is starting again and I thought, before I take the vicodin and while I'm still able to think, I'd check in. David took a couple photos but I'm not sure you want to see them.

What disappointed me was the incompetence of the nursing staff after the surgery. None of them came sooner than 5 minutes after pressing the nurse call button. I'm glad I wasn't choking on that roast beef I cvoulnd cut (can't type either). We had a colonoscopy nurse on the surgical orthopedic floor. Who thought to put her there? She was the best because, even though she didn't know what to do, she was willing to admit it.

I met a lovely woman (50's maybe) from Tibet. She said that if China is willing to admit to the whole world that the opening ceremonies had a stand in for the little singer (I felt bad for them both...to be told you aren't cute enough but you sing nicely...to be told your looks are your only asset) and the fireworks were computer generated--if they were willing to admit they were cheating to the whole world, it's no wonder "they treat us the way they do."

Pema came with her husband and 4 (or 5, I cant remember) daughters by way of India where she and her daughters went to school and became educated. Mmmmmm. More later can't type owie.

How I will spend my next week or so

I'm having a set of these installed in my left shoulder. . . at 2 pm today. No blogging for a few days.


I have my work computer all set up at home, ready for when I can think straight but not drive yet.


On a tastier note, my tomato plant is doing so well that I've already eaten 3. They are about 2 inches across and quite tasty.

Wish me luck

There's nothing like an up-coming medical procedure to create a period of introspection.

For those who don't know, in less than a week I'm having a total shoulder replacement. There are several websites that discuss the procedure, like this one, and this one has an annimation. There are others out there but you'll get the idea.

Anyway, I decided, after working late this evening on the huge project we are in the middle of (and will be for a few months), that I should take myself out to dinner. I haven't done that in a couple months (or more) and have discovered increased savings. (I have also discovered that not buying fiber [yarn] also increases one's monetary holdings.) Ironically, I was also reading a book called Half-Assed, a weight-loss memoir, by Jennette Fulda. She also has a very nice blog.

Her book is incredibly easy-to-read and thought-provoking. A friend had told me about Jennette's blog months ago when we were discussing our mutual weight problems. I looked at the blog a couple times but wasn't that interested in it. It was a slow-motion study of Jennette's weight-loss program. I mean, I don't expect many people to be interested in my blog. I certainly can't be expected to read everyone else's blogs religiously. (Well, there is the yarn harlot. But that's different.)

I teach tai chi chuan at Chinatown Tai Chi Center in St. Paul, Minnesota, and at first it was a weight-loss program of sorts. I lost a little and gained a lot of muscles. But then I figured out how to eat enough to make up for it. Then a couple months ago, the most wonderful young woman started taking classes. She bicycles 20 miles every day (or something like that) and we got to talking about weight loss. She's lost 50+ pounds since January. I mentioned Jennette's website and the book I knew Jennette had written. Turns out my student bought the book and read it in 2 days! And, she let me borrow it.

I'm inspired. I don't know how well I'll do at weight loss. I have no idea how much extra weight a stainless steel arm bone will add. But I've been eating more healthy food for some time and now it's time to pick up my feet and get moving. Wish me luck.

But first, the surgery.